I was looking back at the earlier years of this blog, in the time when I used to blog more regularly. I noticed that my posts then were much more like jottings in a journal: interesting places I’d been, articles I’d read or books I’d enjoyed. I blogged more regularly because I didn’t put much pressure on myself to make each piece perfect.
A lot has changed since then. Part of it is the disease afflicting personal bloggers everywhere: the dissipation of time, attention and ideas onto social media. Instead of writing a whole blog post about what’s on my mind, I just put out a tweet. In some cases, that might be all it needs, but often, the opportunity to extend the idea is lost, and I’m just adding to the vast weight of pointless repetition that is our generation’s primary contribution to the world’s supply of information.
But another thing that’s happened in recent years is that I’ve come to see my website as serving a purpose, and I’ve been writing with that purpose in mind. Generally, I can sum up that purpose as something like wanting to impress people so much with my writing that they feel compelled to read my novels, or hire me for some freelance writing, or whatever my focus is at that time.
The result, however, has not been better written posts. It’s just been fewer posts written with less freedom. The desire for perfection has become something of a prison. The same thing has been happening with my fiction writing. The prison of perfection is a common trap for writers. I’ve been telling myself I’m short of time to write, when actually I’m short of motivation, and that’s largely because of the box I’ve constructed for myself.
So what all of that means is that you can expect to see me frittering away less time on the contribution of free content to social media sites that I never really liked much anyway, and spending more time on here, writing about stuff that interests me. I’ll probably be doing it in a more diaristic, unstructured way, in a way that meanders its way to a point if a point exists at all. Kind of like this post.
In the spirit of this new direction, here’s an interesting site I found lately.